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So tonight I took a step out of my comfort zone & went out.

I never go out.

Tonight I did, we went to Paducah & went out to listen to a band & eat. Then we stopped in at another place & listened to another band.

I don't drink so it wasn't that kind of a night for me.

The girlfriend I went with is very active on the dating scene & with the guys. Me not so much. I missed my Sophie so much.

Plus I missed the life I had built up for myself in my dreams (you know the ones that were crushed).

It was fun listening to the bands, but not watching the people. UGH. This isn't for me.

Lord, I don't understand….

Me.