Saturday, October 18, 2014

The Daughter of a King

How honored to be BE THE DAUGHTER OF A KING.

Yes, it is true.

That's me and it makes me smile!

Thanks Father!

Friday, October 3, 2014

October 3

Today I meet with my attorney again. Our request to deny the motion for visitation from Sophie's grandparents was denied again and I am being forced to seek mediation (and pay 1/2 the cost).

Frustrated. Yes.

So I have cried and asked and wondered what I did wrong, I have questioned and I had to come to the final request to God to let me love.

I don't exactly know what that entails or means but that was what I felt was on my heart.

Let me love.

I will let you know what happens! Fingers crossed! And prayers said!

Much love me!

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Holding on.

Good Morning my sweet friends.

It's been a while I know, I lost a computer recently and time hasn't been available to write.

At church on Sunday I sat with Sophie and Ian and wrestled Sophie until I was just wiped out and barely focusing on the message. I thought to myself this isn't for me, we should just leave. Then Pastor Lee spoke and said, If you are tired, and feeling like you want to run- don't quit. If you are overwhelmed and if you are wondering how you got to this place in your life, if tears are hot, if you have questions about why, if you were left and abandoned...

He went on and on, and everyone seemed to say; 'that's you Val'.

I was in tears because his point was- hold on.

Sometimes holding on is painful. It's the hardest thing in the world that a person can do. It's exhausting and it's degrading, and embarrassing, and a million other things.

As a single mom I'm finding myself overwhelmed 100% of the time. I don't know how to do this life, so holding on to my Savior is my only option. HE is all I have. HE is the one who say's "Val I got this, just trust me".

So I do.

I have been so just numb to everything lately. But I'm holding on to HIS promises!

Much love, Me.