Wednesday, May 11, 2011

May 11th

Good Morning Lord, its 3 AM & I can't sleep.

There's so much on my mind and heart that I cannot put words together, but I know that when I cannot speak that YOU know the yearning of my heart.

Bless us Father as we seek to follow YOUR will for our lives.

Monday night was Kennedy's 1st Softball game. It was more than cute!
Of course Tim came, I was glad for Kennedy's sake, it would have killed her if he hadn't.

But for some reason when I see him it always leads me to having nightmares and Monday night was no exception.

In my nightmare I was so filled with rage and anger that I could not function and it just took over, even just thinking about that nightmare makes my chest tight.

I questioned this today during my quiet time and realized that this anger that I have is a stronghold in my life. Satan who looks to seek, kill and destroy will use that stronghold or weakness to make me feel that I am not worthy of the healing Grace that YOU can give.

Father, please bless me as I seek to outgrow this stage and become the mother, the woman, the daughter, the sister, and the friend that YOU desire for me to be. Help me to put on the armor of God, without any kinks.

Bless me Father.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

May 1st

Good Morning Lord,

Our area was hit with more bad storms overnight and I pray for those who are already to the limit with the sandbagging.

I pray for those still recovering from the devastating storms earlier this week in the South. I pray as they seek the answers to the "why's" that they will find solace in YOU.

I pray for the many around the world who are hurting and seeking for some kind of hope, that they will find that "hope" in YOU.

I pray for my children, they are the apple of my eye and YOUR children too. I pray that when their own father doesn't that YOU will and that they will know the difference. I pray that if they question things that YOU will answer them and let them hold strong and true.

I pray for myself Lord, I'm discouraged today. It seems each time I face a 'situation' that I seem to feel overcome and down. Even though I know during this season in my life that YOU are my Savior in every sense of the word. Lord, I seek you just as it says in Deuteronomy 4:29
But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.

So Lord, I seek YOU, and I still believe this is YOUR will.