Wednesday, May 11, 2011

May 11th

Good Morning Lord, its 3 AM & I can't sleep.

There's so much on my mind and heart that I cannot put words together, but I know that when I cannot speak that YOU know the yearning of my heart.

Bless us Father as we seek to follow YOUR will for our lives.

Monday night was Kennedy's 1st Softball game. It was more than cute!
Of course Tim came, I was glad for Kennedy's sake, it would have killed her if he hadn't.

But for some reason when I see him it always leads me to having nightmares and Monday night was no exception.

In my nightmare I was so filled with rage and anger that I could not function and it just took over, even just thinking about that nightmare makes my chest tight.

I questioned this today during my quiet time and realized that this anger that I have is a stronghold in my life. Satan who looks to seek, kill and destroy will use that stronghold or weakness to make me feel that I am not worthy of the healing Grace that YOU can give.

Father, please bless me as I seek to outgrow this stage and become the mother, the woman, the daughter, the sister, and the friend that YOU desire for me to be. Help me to put on the armor of God, without any kinks.

Bless me Father.