Thursday, October 13, 2011


Good Morning Friend,

It's waaaayyy early here, like 4 AM. I knew I had to get up early so I could get some me time in today.

You see, I *think* I have a blind date this weekend.
He called me last week and asked me out for Saturday night,
but I haven't talked to him yet this week.

I have a lot of trust issues, and trusting that he will call is something I'm dealing with.
Also realizing that every person is not Tim is something else I'm dealing with.

I'm nervous, extremely, but excited.

I'm ready for some adult conversation.
I have noticed lately that I miss that a lot.
I miss the fact that I have no one to talk to about my day.

I just come home and start my housework (I nearly said my mommy job, but I have that one 24-7) and I have no one but children around me.

Somedays I feel like between work and raising the kids, I lose me.
Does that make sense? It is even hard to write those words.

When I first got divorced I knew making the decisions about what "I" wanted was hard because I was having to find out who "I" was, but even now "I" am still lost.

I could list the things that "I" like, but its not the same.
Does this make sense at all?

Well, as I get off here to begin some work that I brought home to do, I leave you with many blessings for today!


Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Good Morning my sweet friend.

I was driving through town yesterday and I watched as a father & son were walking down the street.

When they came to the corner the father reached over to stop the child from walking off the curb before checking to see if there was any traffic coming.

Seeing that immediately made me pray, Father God please do the same for me! Protect me from stepping out into a situation that is not good for me!

How amazed I was that something that is so natural for us to do for our children reminded me that I am still HIS child, and HE still desires to protect me.

So maybe all those "unanswered prayers", or those times we say "WHY????" it is actually because HE is reaching out and stopping us from walking off a curb into a dangerous situation.

I hope that you had a good day yesterday and it was full of times when you were able to say "Thanks"! I pray that today you will be on the receiving end of blessings so abundantly that you will be able to bless someone else.

Happy October 12th!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Good Morning Friend!

Good Morning Friend I say to you as I smile over my steaming hot coco!

Last week was a rough one, but today will be better, I just know it!

I seen a side of someone and it reminded me of where I was 2 years ago & it made me sad.

But I quickly rejoiced in where I am, gave Thanks to the only ONE who got me here today & went on.

Have you ever seen a glimpse of your past and realized how truly blessed you are?

I see God's fingerprints on my life all the time and am amazed that HE chose me.

I had a great weekend, my bf's husband changed out the porch post on my front porch. I will post pictures soon of the before and after. It's amazing and I love it!

God is good all the time, all the time!

Blessings to all and thanks for reading!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Here we go!

Good Morning Lord,
the sound of thunder is so peaceful today.

I'm glad to have the rain.

Much like snow on the ground, a light rain is so pleasing and relaxing to me.
(Of course, this is something that I'm enjoying now because my 2 children are asleep, I'm sure once they are up the feeling will not be mutual)

This has been a huge week for us in our home.

Kennedy has learned how to ride a bike without training wheels! It is with mixed emotions that I watch her peddle up and down our street. I know that my time with these kids is limited and I cherish every moment. I'm blessed to not only have this time, but have it alone.

Thank you Lord, it is in these moments that I truly realize that maybe this is a part of the bigger scheme of things. I'm blessed Lord, and I still believe.

Have you ever been in a moment where you see that God's hand is at work?
Isn't there a peace about being in that place?

Blessings to you and your home!

Saturday, June 18, 2011


Hey, just wanting to let you know,
whatever you are going through,
right there in your heart today,
Someone somewhere has survived it,
and God is standing beside you through it.

Are you having a hard weekend?
Sometimes I do too.
And somehow, someway we'll both get
through this.

I decided to take off early on Friday,
begin enjoying a relaxing weekend.
Until I discovered.........
Kennedy had lice, ugh.

Then because I have such a loving family,
so did myself, Ian, my mom and my sister.

So we spent 6 hours yesterday treating each other.
Imagine that picture, it should make you smile.
I'm so thankful for my cousin Amy, who is a nurse,
for coming and helping us out. She stayed until we all
were given the all-clear sign.

But even receiving the all-clear sign is
not the end of the journey.
Today I am still stripping beds,
drying things at the highestheat that my dryer has,
and using the Rid Spray on E V E R Y T H I N G!

If you have ever been where I am,
I will gladly accept any positive comments!
And if you have ever been here, you probably
said what I said "we should have bought stock
in this company!"

Blessings from this side of the computer!
Hoping you and your family are blessed beyond
anything you can dream up!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

An Anniversary.

I often find myself looking around and saying, wow.

I look back and remember where I was 1 year ago that exact day, and on the 10th of June last year, he left.

It was a night from hell, and one I hope will be forgotten. But to me it was kind of an anniversary of sorts this year. From the 11th of June on, I had functioned 1 entire year as a single mother. I had endured holidays, first days of school, family trips, dinners, all as a single momma.

I had survived the first year and that was an accomplishment.

So, Lord as I seek to just survive another day, I say Thank You, for it is only by Your grace that I am here today.


Hello my name is Val

Note: This was written about 3 weeks ago, but wanted to let you in on my world...

Tonight was it, the final move.

As I had written in my first post, I’ve been here before.

My first time at blogging became about surviving a life before, during and shortly after a divorce.

Then, I decided to change my focus (thanks to an ill meaning reader).

All along I’ve felt like I couldn’t hide what was me, right now, making me who I was to be tomorrow.

Showing that HIS Rod and HIS Staff protected me each step along the way.

I tried to venture in a different direction, but I kept denying who I truly was…a child of the most High God, finding life after a divorce.

Well, tonight was his final move.

He emptied the garage and the shed of his belongings.


I cried once more.
My heart hurt once more.
My kids begged this man, who once loved them more than life, to play, to watch them, to talk to them and he kept moving his stuff.

He loaded the last of it and began to drive away, Ian tried to watch him as far as he could with his eyes, even running to try to see him a little more.

My insides died, again.

Here I am.


A mommy of 2 really awesome kids, a girl who is on a journey, a divorced woman who wonders a lot of days just “how did I get here”, and a child of God.

You may not agree with my life, or my choices, or the shows I watch and if you don’t I don’t want to know about it. You can find something else to read.

But this is now about me, my life, and who I am finding that I truly am.

Sometimes I cry, sometimes I marvel, and sometimes I just am.

Hi, my name is Val and this is my story.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

May 11th

Good Morning Lord, its 3 AM & I can't sleep.

There's so much on my mind and heart that I cannot put words together, but I know that when I cannot speak that YOU know the yearning of my heart.

Bless us Father as we seek to follow YOUR will for our lives.

Monday night was Kennedy's 1st Softball game. It was more than cute!
Of course Tim came, I was glad for Kennedy's sake, it would have killed her if he hadn't.

But for some reason when I see him it always leads me to having nightmares and Monday night was no exception.

In my nightmare I was so filled with rage and anger that I could not function and it just took over, even just thinking about that nightmare makes my chest tight.

I questioned this today during my quiet time and realized that this anger that I have is a stronghold in my life. Satan who looks to seek, kill and destroy will use that stronghold or weakness to make me feel that I am not worthy of the healing Grace that YOU can give.

Father, please bless me as I seek to outgrow this stage and become the mother, the woman, the daughter, the sister, and the friend that YOU desire for me to be. Help me to put on the armor of God, without any kinks.

Bless me Father.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

May 1st

Good Morning Lord,

Our area was hit with more bad storms overnight and I pray for those who are already to the limit with the sandbagging.

I pray for those still recovering from the devastating storms earlier this week in the South. I pray as they seek the answers to the "why's" that they will find solace in YOU.

I pray for the many around the world who are hurting and seeking for some kind of hope, that they will find that "hope" in YOU.

I pray for my children, they are the apple of my eye and YOUR children too. I pray that when their own father doesn't that YOU will and that they will know the difference. I pray that if they question things that YOU will answer them and let them hold strong and true.

I pray for myself Lord, I'm discouraged today. It seems each time I face a 'situation' that I seem to feel overcome and down. Even though I know during this season in my life that YOU are my Savior in every sense of the word. Lord, I seek you just as it says in Deuteronomy 4:29
But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.

So Lord, I seek YOU, and I still believe this is YOUR will.

Monday, April 25, 2011

April 25

Good Morning Lord,

I've been up for a while now and its on 4:57 AM.

We had our first Easter alone and it was...great!

The kids were super excited & loved loved loved their baskets from the bunny!

The weather was less than, but made for a great time in the puddles!

There were no tears today, none.

Well... not exactly.

Ian fell off the couch, bumped his head on the coffee table & that was a quick trip to the ER. But other than that none.

I am blessed.

I thought about last year on Easter and how dinner was stressful and how hard that was and I rejoiced that this year it was better.

This week is an extremely crazy week, the kind that makes you tired just looking at it. Lots of play practice, a Board Meeting, a doctor's appointment, and a surgery for my grandma.

So Lord, as I end this post I ask for Your kindness, Your protection, Your favor, and Your love to be sent out to myself, my children, and my friends.

To You Be the Glory!

Saturday, April 23, 2011

And we are off...

Welcome, It's been a little bit since I've been here.
I had to do some soul searching and some growing too,
and now I'm back.

I hope that you will continue with me on my journey through this life that God has so graciously blessed me with, and I will hope that God will richly bless you in return.

Anyway... here we go!

Many thoughts & Many prayers,