I'm not ready yet to love.
I've tried to rush it by doing the "sites" hoping that someone else might make the hurt go away.
I just hurt
Maybe someday seeing your name won't hurt so much.
Maybe someday hearing that song won't hurt so much.
But for now it does.
For now I have to heal, my subscription thing on those sites are just for a bit longer & then I will not be rejoining. But until then I will not be visiting them. I have to heal and I cannot heal by making things worse.
I have to trust God that I will be okay & heal from all this.
But for now I hurt.
My kids help me, but today when I seen your name pop up, my heart stopped and I couldn't do anything but look at it.
Just keep me close Lord.